Usefullness?

There's probably an extra 'L' in there but I like using multiple double letters in words...like mississippi. lol

Anyway, I'd been wondering how much I blog anymore...I mean, I have my own page I can setup to be as private as I want, or let anyone I want know about it...but I just don't have the urge to put my thoughts down like I used to I suppose. I'm trying to figure out what it stems from...

I think it's because I've started talking to God more...right before I go to sleep at night I've been trying to make it a habit to look out my dark, open window and listen to the world (and sometimes Vickie's dog) and just talk to God. I'm not sure if I'd really call it a prayer...but it always turns out that way, which is kinda cool in itself. I talk about things that weigh heavy on my heart, mainly finding that one Christian girl God has for me...and how I'm gonna get a job after I graduate. The latter isn't a big deal, but the former...it feels like I'm ALWAYS thinking about it. Even as I walk between classes or I'm driving. Sometimes I don't mind pondering the future and what God might do, it's like I'm causing myself emotional pain cause everyday I wonder if today is the day, and obviously it hasn't been yet.

I guess that, because I tend to do this, I've been praying for patience...which I always thought I had, but I'm finding out that I just don't have any when it comes to this...and I suppose it would be different if 80% of the girls I know where like the 2-3 that I know to be good Christians. Heh, if it were like that I can almost guarantee I'd be married by now (or at least engaged).

Enough of such things and on to more cheerful news: School's almost over...and I might be getting a job at the Theater this Summer...interesting? I haven't decided yet. Right now all I know if that I have Word open in my other screen and it has a 2/10 page paper that I need to be 10/10 before I hit the hay. Tomorrow I then need to research a timeline of native americans in Oklahoma and finish about 14 essay questions....THEN, I need to work on my Design projects...err..finals. It sounds rough, but I think I got most of it ironed out.

I figured out I'm one of those people who have to have meaning in everything. Mainly because everything HAS meaning in it...at least to me. I'm also a glass all-full person. I think the glass is 50% full of tea (or other liquid) and 50% full of air...thus 100% full. 

I learned the Cherokee creation story this semester...and I am amazed at how similar it compares to the Bible. I forgot some of it, but I have a video of it I might have to download or something to my computer.

Anyway...this paper has to be done soon...way too soon so I am off for now.

Another Movie Idea

Ok, been looking at some christian game studios and the lack of games that have stepped out of the box to make something original and truly epic...and I thought of this:

I'm thinking it's kind of a RPG or Shooter...not sure yet though.
You begin as an Angel in some rubble awaiting orders to attack, and after hacking through demons a while you level up and gain this ability called "Life", which heals you. After hacking some more you finish the level and gain your second ability...a shield! (that's right it's the Angel from WoW's Pally) which lets you block, bash and shield Ram. You learn this separated a little bit from each other though. At the end of the second level, you hear a soft still voice asking you if you'd like to be chosen for a special mission (which you obviously say yes) and begin the 3rd level as a human but you're in the same place...Wyoming. Now, the skirmish wasn't in Wyoming necessarly...you did so in another dimension, so to speak. Think of the world as a shell, and under it is Hell...and you can traverse it in either dimension depending on what you have to go over, through, around. Cause as a human, you literally are human. No special powers, sword, or shield. You get to run, climb, and jump...or and you save people when you can.

I'm thinking that once you save 5 people (from traffic, mugging, and that sort of thing) you gain Angelic Touch (heal people), at 25 you can use your shield, after 50, your sword, and after 100, you can be seen as an Angel while in human form....don't worry, there's lots of people that need saving out there.
Oh, and human form does give you the ability to sense demons, and you can always "Pray" to save your game, but not in a fight of course, because it takes 4 seconds for the save and you must kneel. So, I'm thinking that since you become completely human while in human form, you save this girl like 5 times, and she gives you a place to stay, food, and conversations that determine your path for the rest of the game. Maybe you fall in love with her (or him if you choose to play as a girl since Angels are neither) and choose a life as a human, or maybe you like her, but stay to your duty as an Angel...or maybe you don't like her at all...hmmmm.

Anyway, you battle some more and gain some more abilities...I'm thinking something like:
"Truth" - a giant swing of your sword that hits enemies in an arc for decent damage.
"Way" - A downway sword swing that hits enemies up to 30 feet from you in a line.
"Faith" - Strengthens your defense, and enemies take damage when you block.
"Cristo" - You cry out the name of Christ, panicking, and sometimes deafening those within 30 feet.

Maybe it goes and since you're in human form, Satan knows you can be tempted...and does so in order to get you to side with him. You choose certain senarios and decisions and end up either siding with Satan, who uses you to gain control of something important, then slaughters you and has you sent back to the world...you somehow get revived, and realize what you did...ask forgiveness, or you chose to fight the temptation, and Satan ends up capturing and torturing you, and sending your almost dead body back to earth, where you get revived as well.

---I'm thinking that Satan doesn't torture you, but a general or something does.

Then you ask God for the ability to Destroy the general. After proving your faith again (if you chose to go AWOL) or proving that you have the ability to defeat him, you are given a new sword and shield. Also a new suit of armor entirely...though I have a few ideas on what that could be. Maybe nothing...just clothes, and your armor is your faith...it would be interesting.

Also, thinking about throwing in some advanced sword techniques...but I dunno if they'd be based on buttons or chosing them through a menu, or even based on your position in relation to the enemy. I'm thinking buttons, using RT (360 controller) as swing or block and LT as the other. RB as Way, LB as Bash, X as run, A as Jump, Y as Life, B as Melee or something.

I'm thinking of an Over-the-shoulder viewpoint, but further back than RE4. Enough to see all of yourself and a little but more. I guess that would be a close 3rd person view.

It's an interesting concept...I've thought of some dialog for it, and some random funny things as well. It would be at least 2 or 3 Disks, which would make it the longest Shooter EVER. lol

Comic/movie idea

Ok, you've got this kid who has black outs and wakes up around people who have been saved, and sometimes around people who have been killed. He wants to know if he is a hero or a villian, and if he can be a hero if it turns out he is indeed a villian. It takes place in a universe where all the big heroes are living. Superman, Batman, Flash...you know what I mean.

So he seeks out Superman cause he's in Metropolis at the time, and ends up accidently killing Superman with his powers, or so he thinks, I haven't decided yet. So all the other heroes are out to get him, when they find out. So he is saught out by the Villians and they show him his powers and try to manipulate him, but his power has it's own personality when he's not there (mentally) and it HATES to be manipulated, and kill a bunch of villians...so he then wakes up in the desert and wanders around trying to control his powers...

From there I'm still figuring it out...

Winter WonderSLAM!

So yeah, I won some tickets on the radio a few months ago, and had no one to take till the last minute. I texted a friend of mine thinking he and his gf just might be able to go (I had 4 tickets) and by some miracle of God he was on teh internet about to buy 3 tickets for him, his gf, and his gf's sister. So I managed to fill all my seats and find some friends to go.

It was an awesome concert, Relient K was amazing as usual, but it was my first time to really see and hear TobyMac which was interesting in itself. I'm much more of a fan now than the little I was beforehand.

Oh, and finals are over *deep sigh of relief*

As the leaf

As a leaf clings to the branch
While the winds try to rip it away
Let me pull you close to my soul
As the branch holds it in the storm
So will you always hold onto me

As the leaf soars in the air
While it falls to the earth,
Will I fly when you lift me up
After the world have put me down

As the leaf
As the leaf

You save the leaf from the winds
That sought to rip it apart
You guided it gracefully through the air

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I got tired...I'll finish it later...

Star Crack

So yeah...after spending hours looking at my Star Wars cards I had to ask myself the question: "Why did I quit, really?"

At first I didn't know...a lot of things bothered me about the game, and about people who played the game. Mainly cause Wizards hated the TCG, or just didn't care, and let it fall away by not advertising it at all. I truly believe that Star Wars was 2nd only to Magic for about 2 years; 2004-05ish.

Secondly, because of people who played the game that I knew had every card in the game...foil, and every time I got a sweet new card or that wicked cool Promo Boba Fett they'd wanna trade all these cards they knew I needed for it. I guess it was just how they played...when I would lose to them I'd feel like less of a person in ways, not because of the deck strategy, but because of how they played...emotionally I suppose.

After pondering these things for a minute or two I wondered what I loved about the game...and I came up with this: It's Star Wars and all my friends do it. I know that sounds lame, but it's the same reason why I'm playing WoW right now. I've got friends that I can play with online.

getting to the heart of this, I lost my Tusken deck and a few other cards...I think Russ has them, so I was angry...cause the Tusken deck is THE deck in my universe. Dark Side can be whatever...but Tuskens are for me. So i went looking on the net...and found lackey. This program basically lets me play with others over the net and have ALL the cards in ALL sets. pretty sweet. I've already made a bunch of decks, and I need to tweak them.

So this blog is basically just to say "hey...if you ever played SWTCG...get Lackey, make a deck or two...and play me." I already have phil and Russ playing it. Maybe if we get 6 or so we can do an online tournament or something fun like that.

Oh and I heard that Bioware released info on The Old Republic, the new MMORPG. I want!! Google it.

---Ewok Avengers---

Lappy 486

So yeah, got my laptop, and I'm typing on it right now. I love this thing. It is great in so many more ways than I thought it would be. Dell can shove it and this laptop has the power to make them. Not a problem with it yet. I deleted some crap that everyone HAS to keep putting on premade laptops...like Norton. AVG all the way. It came with this game...ALone In THe Dark. It's absolutely insane...but interesting. I'll prolly play it in between classes or something. Only problem I have with it so far is the power cord is kinds short, but I think I can fix that cause I can find the shorter end of it that goes into the wall at Radioshack or something for a couple bucks...heh, I may even have one laying around the house.

I'm swamped...I have a 4 page paper to write this weekend, then a mid-term on monday. Oh, and I almost forgot my finals project that I am COMPLETELY redoing this weekend....tomorrow WILL suck.